My username is bemiller30 if you want to play. Haha

Ever since I slacked for several weeks my runs haven’t gone so well. I keep giving in the first moment I want to stop and walk. Which the other day was 0.2 miles in, I didn’t even make it half a mile. Before Christmas I was able to run 3 miles with only taking one break. WTF! I’ve also gotten slower…this bites!
Monday I did 3.5, as soon as I hit that first, long, steady uphill I had to walk. I did run most of it, but the hills got me. I ran in my hilly neighborhood again, it always demotivates me a little and makes me mad. I’ve got to stop running around my neighborhood thinking this time will be better.
Today I’m going to the running/bike path. I usually do better there and there are small/less hills. I plan to run 4 miles. I hope it goes better today than it has been. I’m tired of having to stop and walk so much.
I’m def getting worried/nervous about Nola. I’m mad at myself for not training right. I think I really could have trained well this time. Last time I trained for a half I got injured, but I still ran it.
Oh well, I’ve learned yet another lesson.

Here is to better runs!!!

Amazing!!! Way to go Rach!!!

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OR Fifty Miles of Mud…

Saturday I finished Rocky Raccoon 50 Mile Endurance Run, my first ultramarathon and first trail race.  

Friday started with early morning travel and a stop at Chick-fil-a.

After seven hours in the car, we arrived at packet pick up and our first look at the trails.

My daughter ran the kid’s one mile trail race and came back with our first trail report.  She said she’d leave the trail running to us.

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“I’ll start tomorrow” Or my favorite “I’ll start on Monday” Hahaha tomorow never comes and Monday certainly never comes. That’s what I’ve been saying for I don’t know how long. Last night I went to bed and I didn’t say I’d start tomorrow. This morning when I woke up I went for a run(4 miles), first one this week, and ate a healthy breakfast. It starts now, not tomorrow. I’ve been in a slump for way too long. I’ve gained a lot some more weight back. I’ve also been using every excuse in the book and feeling pretty sorry for myself.

The move…Things are different here. Some things are better, some things are harder. The things that are harder all have to do with getting exercise in. Before we moved I could just walk out the door and get a run in. Here our neighborhood has MASSIVE hills, and I just can’t run them yet. Before we moved it took me 7 minutes to get to my gym from work or 15 minutes to get there from my house. It takes longer here, and I’ve been using that has an excuse. I’ve been trying to figure out what gym i’m going to join. NO choice is going to be any kind of convenient. I’m going to have to suck it up.

I wrote out a list of things I want for me. I want to feel better, look better, be healthy, be fit, fit into my clothes again, be active, STOP BINGE EATING, stop emotionally eating, have more energy, and BE HAPPY. I know losing weight alone won’t make me happy per say, but I think changing my lifestyle will make me happier.

I also keep thinking about how I know how to do this. I’ve done it before. I lost over 80 lbs doing it the right way a year and half ago and have gained half of it back. I’m not sure what happened to me. Why have I reverted back to old, bad habits?! These bad habits will not get me the things I want for myself.

So this is my attempt to reboot! I am eating healthy today if it freaking kills me. It’s going to be hard for a few weeks, but I want to feel better. I know this is the only way I’m going to feel better about myself right now.

I have been going back and forth about following a certain eating plan. I’m done with agonizing over it. I’m just going to eat healthy. I know how to eat healthy. I might even start using my bodybugg again to keep me in line with my calories.

One thing I’ve learned on this journey is that when I’m not eating healthy and exercising I’m thinking about it 24/7. I drive myself crazy thinking about it, worrying about it, and getting on to myself. The solution is to just do it. No excuses.

This is just where I’m at. I am feeling more positive today. I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday!

Jonathan and I are going for a bike ride this afternoon with some new friends. I am excited about it. Yay!